Saturday, May 7, 2011

Journeys Within Journeys

Where the Sava meets the Danube, behind the Kalemegdan Fortress
Our dear new friend, Nela 

Only four days it was in Belgrade, but the women we met, the histories we saw, the courage of resistances in the face of economic and political despair, the laughter we shared, the work we did together in the day and in the night, the witnessing of Queen Latifah's struggles to find a place to live, to have a decent life with her partner while she zoomed around the streets of Belgrade in her taxi, our gate keeper, bringing us into Belgrade and taking us out again, Lepa's never ending wave, her hand reaching for the sky, gave us great surges of hopeful life. The journey that started with the wonderful women of the Brighton Conference, sitting around our little outdoor table, telling life stories, and brought us to Belgrade, is coming to an end. London has become a home to us now, but as I thought, it is not New York or Paris or even London that took us into needed new territories, it was Belgrade.   


Friday, May 6, 2011

Images from Belgrade--2

In a street behind the Majestic, behind high walls, is the surviving synagoge of Belgrade. Still in use for the small surviving Jewish community there, it also houses Jewish families. Histories within histories, walls behind walls.

Images From Belgrade--1

within the Majestic, after talk
looking down from our hotel window at some of the women taking part in the weekend
The dear Majestic
a city hanging on

Thursday, May 5, 2011

How Can this Be: The Failure of CUNY'S Seat of Power

Trying so hard to hold on to the wonders of the progressive communities represented in Belgrade, lesbians, feminists, queers, I receive from Shebar the news about the trustees of CUNY refusing Tony Kushner an honorary PHD because of his writings about Israel. As a queer Jew, as a graduate of CUNY, as a teacher in its SEEK Program for almost 30 years, as a writer who uses public space to look at misuses of power, I am enraged, disappointed beyond words at this betrayal of what I thought CUNY represented. Now I know the Board of Trustees does not represent the students, the faculty, the other wonders of brave thinking of this New York much loved and needed institution, it does represent the heart of power that stands for the institution.  As an American Jewish queer, I see how indirectly Israel's call for loyalty above all else is having an impact on our democracy. Tony Kushner is America's, perhaps the world's, greatest living playwright. As his latest play shows, he makes us ask uncomfortable questions about both our personal and public lives as Americans, he does the work of an artist. I cannot go on; I know many others will take this all on, this moment of what I call Jewish McCarythism and the cowards who supported it. Ironically, Jeffrey S. Wiesenfeld, uses the gay word in his censuring of Kushner: "Especially when the State of Israel, which is our sole democratic ally in the area, sits in the neighborhood which is almost universally dominated by administrations which are almost universally misogynist, anti-gay, anti-Christian,"; here is the false appeal to gay nationalisms. No word of how America has supported, encouraged, paid for, given overwhelming arms to these same flourishing dictatorships, no word of the Arab Spring where against all the odds, women and men within these countries are taking on with so little all the powers of the up to now American supported regimes. Do not ever speak for me, Mr Wiesenfeld, this queer woman Jew. Not all your power can change what more and more of us are saying, within Israel and without, Jews and non-Jews: Israel is losing its soul with every day of the Occupation, with every checkpoint, with every punishing barrier to hope for a future for young Palestinians in Gaza, in the West Bank, with every racist decree of a xenophobic government.

Over ten years ago, I was given an Honorary PhD by the Graduate Center of CUNY. Up to now, I treasured this moment as I treasured the working class, progressive traditions of the university system. Now I am ashamed--not of the students and vast majority of teachers--but at the university's hollow heart of power.

Please note that these words and opinions are mine, not Tony's. He has and will express his own far better then I can.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Lepa, Lepa, Lepa Mladjenovic--who Makes it All Possible

Lepa, smiling, with Italian love songs in her heart
On our way to lunch with Nela
Lepa between sessions during Lesbian Week in Belgrade

Lepa working with us, with our translators, Tanja and Nina, in the big meeting at the Hotel Majestic
Lepa and Queen Latifa saying good-bye
Lepa and a little part of me, of us

The Books, The Books

from Belgium, by Ann David and Mips Meyntjens
the yellow poetry collection by Stefa Markunova
Lesbian Resistances, by Urska Sterle, from Slovenia

At our gatherings in Belgrade, books were given to me, hand to hand, precious handing overs, which I will pass on to the Lesbian Herstory Archives in Booklyn, but first I hold them dear. "Oud=Out" was given to me by Ria as we sat at Lepa's kitchen table, a history of lesbian and bisexual women in Belgium, "Ervaringen van lesbische en bisekuele vrouwen, geborne voor 1945," written by Ann David and Mips Meyntjens. Along with this gift, Ria handed me an envelope filled with the wonderful photographs of Lieve Snellings, another Women in Black comrade from Belgium whose images can be found at http://snellings.telent.be  We ate our pasta, talked of shared pasts, moved our bodies in little dances taught to us by other women at other gatherings for change, and gave gifts of creation.

Another point of exchange was after the large group meeting in the Hotel Majestic: one from the hands of a younger activist from Slovenia, Urska Sterle, and the other, a collection of poems, from the hand of a woman of my age, Stefa Markunova, "Zene Na Ribarskom Ostrvu." After our translated conversation, a young woman sitting on the window ledge in the back of the room, asked is there still room for the lesbian monster in our thinking. We had been talking of the lesbian yearnings for respectability in Western countries--her words brought me back instantly to the middle 70s--to a southern lesbian writer who wrote of the lesbian monster, here I mourn the loss of the archives living in my daily life--I would have been able to find her work, her name, right off the shelves--and now memory escapes me but not the power of her work. I understood what Urska was calling for, I said perhaps it is the work of the artists to keep that space of rebellion, that rich space on the margins where so much can be imagined, alive.After we talked, and she put in my hand her book, "Vecno Vojno Stanje," carefully drawing my attention to the cover image. A group of dykes and their dogs sitting outside their cafe which had been bombed the day before, "You see here," Urska said, "here are the signs of the Molotov cocktail that had been thrown at the club," with the words "Death to Lesbians" scrawled on the wall. "We were back the next day, when this picture was taken, we refused to stay away." Urska is the woman standing by the door. As I looked down at this image and heard her words, I felt a hugeness in me. This was for me one of the most important lesbian images of the last century and of this one so far, the persistence of those bodies considered national deviants, refusing to give up their public space, stretching out their legs, hanging their hand bags over the backs of chairs, their dogs' firm bodies almost on vigil, the women sit with worried faces, a hand worries short hair, their faces strained, words of hate above their heads, but not giving an inch of that narrow street. This legacy, this gift of resistance I give to you.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Which World will Stand for Us?

"It's payback! I am hoping the fish and the crabs are having a good meal on his eyeballs."..."Rot in hell!"..."Justice is just a politician's word. It is all about revenge for me."...The Statue of Liberty clutching Bin Laden's severed and bloody head," "USA USA"..."Triumphalism and unapologetic patriotism are in order. We got the son of a bitch," USA USA

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars, Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that." Martin Luther King Jr sent to me by Paula.

How can we respect all the lives, in all countries, all the families, in all countries, touched by this madness we have all been part of--endless war in the name of our national certainties, our national needs, national vanities and national fears--the children blown apart, all the children, the parents living unwanted lives so much has been lost, all the human hearts twisted by so much pain, so much loss--all the hearts, not one country's over another, all the loss to our collective human selves.

statue of Ghandi in the peace garden of Tavistock Place

What is left of us?